Because of you

I awake each day with a smile

And greet it with a laugh;

The world is a treasure to me

Because of you.

You make me melt into a puddle

 of complete helplessness

you have become my every waking thought

 and my every dream at night

I breathe in so hard

Trying to catch my breath

 when we can't talk

I close my eyes so tight

 Hoping when I open them you will be there

I took your love for granted,

Could not see through my blind eyes,

I did not know how much I loved you,

Now, in pain, I realize.

You must have stumbled across the key,

and discovered so much more.

 You found a hidden place in me,

you found my heart and opened the door.

 And I cried in pain of losing my dear friend.

Well, now,

if little by little you stop loving me

I shall stop loving you little by little

My love bleeds out for you,

But can you  patch it up before I become an empty shell,

Will you be able to fill me back up again,

Or will I finally be drained, fall, and shatter.

Will it ever be the same again?

 If it passes will it be the end?

 I realized it was worth so much,

as I lie in bed that night.

So I allowed my soul to be touched,

without even putting up a fight.

Then again,

I lay awake each night

With a tear in my eye

A dreaded thought in my mind

Because of you

Your tiny soul touched me deep

I look up as a tear rolls slowly down my cheek,

I think about better days and wonder if I'll feel that way again,

I remember those eyes I know so well deep and blue

that touched my soul every time i gazed

I remember your tiny steps,

You entered my life and bought with you a bundle of joys,

We fought, we played,

You bite me till I was red,

You screamed till I was almost went deaf,

Milk was always on my clothes with you being around.

You ran at the sound of me entering the door

A welcome no one else ever gave

You jumped into my lap and wouldn’t leave

We formed a special bond one cannot see

You touched my soul deep within

How I miss all that

How I wish you were here

What I won’t give for you to be here

My love for you will always remain, 

You touched my soul deep within

God Bless your tiny soul my little kitty

All I can do is wonder.

It seeps in too late

When life’s seems settled

Everything changes suddenly

You lose control

You knew the answers

 But the questions are missing 

You fight it hard

But it gets to you regardless

When joys have lost their bloom and breath,

 and life itself is vapid, 

Why do I still feel the need to fight? 

Dripping slowly away the tides recede

And I stand alone.

I look down from the precipice that is my life

and wonder where the tides go.

 Will they return to fill my gaping soul?

All I can do is wait.

All I can do is wonder.